A person like I went to church everyday, prayed to god, and protected others that managed not to matter to me. I held my own with the one you called the deceiver for years. I grew up in a catholic family willing to protect my religion. Finally I was beaten down by my father. Told I wasn't good enough. I was taken to the dephths of hell and loved it. I prayed to "god" that he would take me from it, guard me from it. But no! He added onto with my fathers beatings. He would tell me who I am was wrong. Look what he did. They say god pushes you to the limit because he knows you can handle it! NO! He fucking pushed me so far off of the c